I don't post too often now, so I may just continue this way now.  I'll leave this page music-less for now, but Beyond_Eternity will have music, of course.

I just have to say this now...

Xenosaga episode III has the craziest storyline of any game I ahve ever played....ever.

I don't want to go into details....but It's basically the Space bible...Including a space Jesus, that joins you....

This song was introduced to me by my friend, who also translated the meanings of the song to me.

This song contains Buddhist wisdom, which I recently found matched with much of my beliefs recently.  I was actually rather surprised that such beliefs went through places besides Asia without much notice.  I somewhat contribute this to the punishments the other religions give if you leave their faith, along with the fact that it isn't actively spread.

But the words apply to the struggles of humans around the world with their suffering, and wise tenets of the faith.  Those who are interested in helping humans would be interested to know the meaning.  So I will post a bit of what my friend wrote:

""Why are we treating the sky and earth this way?" when the music settles  a bit, he sings: "Even the strongest dragon fan cant blow it all away." "Our curse cannot be lifted." "We find our knowledge from the scrolls from the west [India.]"
"Humans and the heaven cannot mix, they cannot live together no matter what." "Just like fire and ice." "One clap and one smile is all it takes." "No hate, no love."  When he sings "gai hun, gai jung..." that means "get rid of hate and anger." "But if you dont get rid of excess emotions, it's still useless." "Gai yok, gai chee." "Do not eat meat, do not lust." "You can surpass humans and become a saint." When the chanting begins
it means: "all is determined," "first is dream, then its shadow." "Rebel against the heavens." "Punishment is the judge." "sic but yu hon, hon but yu sic" means having sumthing means having nothing, having nothing means having sumthing, this is from a scroll
and it has a deep meaning."

I personally feel that this song has a deep resonance and understanding of everything I have been trying to tell people ever since I stopped feeling sad and hating humans for their misdeeds.  There is so much wrong with our actions, and we all know it, let's do our best to stop our suffering, even those who wish suffering must rid themselves of their hate and forgive if they wish to survive on this world as their full potential.  We should work together to acheive our full potential as humans.  Even though we will all be gone someday, along with our world, we live now.

It's odd to enter a place that is connected to someone you know and want to see, but haven't seen a long time, yet when you finally manage to arrive, that person isn't there.

Though this is only because I went to such a place for an event and also because it was an event for me and not the person I want to see.

Though it would be odd to finally meet people you used to be absolutely obsessed with meeting again, but gradually stopped caring.  It's also odd to find that somewhere, you never did stop caring.  But my heart and mind never ever actually let go of those it has held.  Even those who think I may never want to see them again.

My old friends, old loves, old random humans I have communicated with.  We all see the same sky and breathe the same breath.  I don't actively seek you, yet I want to find you.  The world has torn us apart, yet we no longer need to be amongst each other.

It's a good thing that humans are connected to each other through the internet.  Without it, I wouldn't know as much as I do.  Others may curse it for ruining them, but that is not the fault of the internet.

"We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men (note: as in humans) are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness. --That to secure these rights, Governments are instituted among Men, deriving their just powers from the consent of the governed, --That whenever any Form of Government becomes destructive of these ends, it is the Right of the People to alter or to abolish it, and to institute new Government, laying its foundation on such principles and organizing its powers in such form, as to them shall seem most likely to effect their Safety and Happiness."

Too damn bad that this isn't true, hmm?

Fuahaha.  It seems that you have beeen usurped, oh dearest and oldest surviving republic.  I wonder what figurehead will be elected next?

Oh....I bet it would be simply wonderful if they manage to pull some sort of visible coup, but it may be invisible.

The folly of humankind is really beginning to show....Hard.  But it couldn't be any worse than what I have done, or what anyone in a similar situation as I has done.....I mean...after all, we are abhored for a reason...right?  But Humans are the epitome of all good in their own modern mythologies.  Face the truth, my dearest children,  you aren't in for what can be considered "an easy ride..."And it's actually your fault.  Some much more faulty than others.  Good luck with being born human on Earth.

Anyway....I believe that I am just as faulted, being born human on earth as well.  Yet...my problems lie elsewhere, as in service to my own beliefs, such actions aren't becoming of people like me, who are supposed to be servants.